Lots of Stress

So it's been a while since I've posted and that's because we have been under a lot of stress here. While Husband was out Ubering he got ran off the road and had to drive up onto a curb to avoid being hit by some random guy who thought he was more important that the safety of others. Due to that the car is messed up. Uber's insurance is covering it, but we have to come up with the $1000 deductible.

Surprisingly I don't happen to have an extra $1k lying around. We have started a GoFundMe. Due to the car being down we don't have a way to make any extra money and we have bills coming up. Not only that we can't afford to get the my meds for my PTSD, depression, and suicidal thoughts. We have had to ask family members to buy our food and food for our cats.

It's to the point I am having to give up my two male guinea pigs because we simply cannot take care of them properly. Our rent is being raised as well by $100 which sucks because we are going to have a hard enough time as is. Our cell phones are being turned off since we can't pay that bill. Our electric bill is coming up and they will shut us off because we can't pay them either.

Lady (our puppy) is doing great though. Luckily we got her and all her stuff before this happened and hopefully have enough for a while. Husband has been in pain after the accident too so we think he cracked a few ribs.

Due to all this stress my weight loss has kind of taken a back seat for me. I'm not eating properly when I do eat. I'm not eating enough I know that too. I also know I'm not getting the exercise I should be. It's just too hard to do a workout when my having issues with my PTSD. Even as I'm typing this I hit something and suddenly screen is now a half inch to the left!

I gained some weight back but not much. I'm only back up to 253. It's depressing, but I've come to far to really give up. The best I can do with my depression is try to make sure I'm getting my steps in and not eating bad things when I do eat. Well that's all for now. I'll post again tonight with my current stats and stuff.

-Ayvid

Little Gain, but No Setback

That's right. I gained a pound back. It's OK though. I can pick up and carry on from there. It's only a little gain so I'm not counting it as a setback. This just shows that I need to up things a little to keep losing. Tomorrow I am going to reevaluate my step goal and probably up it. I did lose 2" on my waist which was awesome!!

My belly is finally blocked by the view of my chest which is also awesome. I am generally feeling better although today my energy is sapped. I think I might need to do a quick workout in the morning tomorrow and rest for most of the day. Well I gotta head off. Just too exhausted to type too much.

Remember: You are worthy of love.

-Ayvid

Today's Stats:
Weight: 259.4 (8/18)
Waist: 44.5" (8/18)
Step Streak: 6 days (Longest: 14)
Soda Streak: 0 days (Longest: 7)