Lots of Stress

So it's been a while since I've posted and that's because we have been under a lot of stress here. While Husband was out Ubering he got ran off the road and had to drive up onto a curb to avoid being hit by some random guy who thought he was more important that the safety of others. Due to that the car is messed up. Uber's insurance is covering it, but we have to come up with the $1000 deductible.

Surprisingly I don't happen to have an extra $1k lying around. We have started a GoFundMe. Due to the car being down we don't have a way to make any extra money and we have bills coming up. Not only that we can't afford to get the my meds for my PTSD, depression, and suicidal thoughts. We have had to ask family members to buy our food and food for our cats.

It's to the point I am having to give up my two male guinea pigs because we simply cannot take care of them properly. Our rent is being raised as well by $100 which sucks because we are going to have a hard enough time as is. Our cell phones are being turned off since we can't pay that bill. Our electric bill is coming up and they will shut us off because we can't pay them either.

Lady (our puppy) is doing great though. Luckily we got her and all her stuff before this happened and hopefully have enough for a while. Husband has been in pain after the accident too so we think he cracked a few ribs.

Due to all this stress my weight loss has kind of taken a back seat for me. I'm not eating properly when I do eat. I'm not eating enough I know that too. I also know I'm not getting the exercise I should be. It's just too hard to do a workout when my having issues with my PTSD. Even as I'm typing this I hit something and suddenly screen is now a half inch to the left!

I gained some weight back but not much. I'm only back up to 253. It's depressing, but I've come to far to really give up. The best I can do with my depression is try to make sure I'm getting my steps in and not eating bad things when I do eat. Well that's all for now. I'll post again tonight with my current stats and stuff.

-Ayvid

DVD Workout and Swimming

Today was pretty normal. I went to my mom's and sister's place and did a workout from Walk Away the Pounds. It was a pretty easy workout. I figured they would want something a little more gentle today. Tomorrow will be a rest day, but they are planning on going swimming. We did go swimming today as well after my niece got back from her first day of school.

She's pretty smart so I'm sure she will do well in school. I got my steps in today as well. I have been having some concerns about the amount of weight I have to lose and the extra skin I may have. I hope I don't have much if any, but I am trying to come to terms with the fact that I might have to deal with having at least some extra.

Losing almost 100 pounds is a massive transformation and I know some days are going to be hard. I'm trying really hard today to not let this fear stop me, but it's hard. I'm not going to give up though. I know once I get there I won't regret it. Well that's all tonight.

-Ayvid

Today's Stats:
Weight: 260.2 (8/11)
Waist: 46.75" (8/11)
Step Streak: 11 days (Longest: 11)
Soda Streak: 5 days (Longest: 5)

Stressful, but Great Weekend

So this last weekend the Husband and I went to Stanly, ID for his family reunion. We decided to take our kayaks so that my brother-in-law wouldn't have to at least rent any kayaks. We had bought these $200 racks to go on the car to hold them. We paid about $300 for the kayaks themselves and like another $100 for the carrier pieces.

We're going 80 MPH down the highway (where that was the speed limit lol). We came out from under an overpass and big rig truck blew past us. All the different air pressures and currents blew the kayaks, holder, and racks right off the top off my car while I was driving. So here we are pulled over running across the highway to get all our stuff so no one can run it over and get hurt.

The racks are garbage so they just go in the back seat and two of our four straps broke so they go in there too. We get it strapped down with just the two straps and I get back up to speed going about 60 this time and they blow off again (on their own). Now this area we were in was have 40+ mph gusts of wind which did not help.

So here we are again running after these kayaks. We were already upset at the loss of the racks themselves we were not about to lose our $300 kayaks too. We finally get them on there to where they will stay and we make it to Idaho. The next truck stop we see we stop and get more straps. So by the time we got to Stanley (2+ hours after we should have when we left that morning) we still have the kayaks and it's late.

Once we were there though it was a lot of fun. We went to the lake Saturday and saw most of my bother-in-law's kids and most of Husband's kids. It was really awesome to see them and the grand-kids. We had loads of fun ate some great food. Sunday was much better because at this point we knew how to attach these things so they weren't going anywhere. We didn't go above 70 the way home, but they didn't move and we got them home in one piece.

NOW on to the weight stuff! I weighed myself this morning and I'm down to 264.2! That means I am down 4.8 lbs!!!!! I'm so happy when I saw this morning I figured I'd blog early about it. I may blog again tonight, but it will be shorter with my streaks information.

You all are amazing!
-Ayvid