Lots of Stress

So it's been a while since I've posted and that's because we have been under a lot of stress here. While Husband was out Ubering he got ran off the road and had to drive up onto a curb to avoid being hit by some random guy who thought he was more important that the safety of others. Due to that the car is messed up. Uber's insurance is covering it, but we have to come up with the $1000 deductible.

Surprisingly I don't happen to have an extra $1k lying around. We have started a GoFundMe. Due to the car being down we don't have a way to make any extra money and we have bills coming up. Not only that we can't afford to get the my meds for my PTSD, depression, and suicidal thoughts. We have had to ask family members to buy our food and food for our cats.

It's to the point I am having to give up my two male guinea pigs because we simply cannot take care of them properly. Our rent is being raised as well by $100 which sucks because we are going to have a hard enough time as is. Our cell phones are being turned off since we can't pay that bill. Our electric bill is coming up and they will shut us off because we can't pay them either.

Lady (our puppy) is doing great though. Luckily we got her and all her stuff before this happened and hopefully have enough for a while. Husband has been in pain after the accident too so we think he cracked a few ribs.

Due to all this stress my weight loss has kind of taken a back seat for me. I'm not eating properly when I do eat. I'm not eating enough I know that too. I also know I'm not getting the exercise I should be. It's just too hard to do a workout when my having issues with my PTSD. Even as I'm typing this I hit something and suddenly screen is now a half inch to the left!

I gained some weight back but not much. I'm only back up to 253. It's depressing, but I've come to far to really give up. The best I can do with my depression is try to make sure I'm getting my steps in and not eating bad things when I do eat. Well that's all for now. I'll post again tonight with my current stats and stuff.

-Ayvid

So tired

Today was pretty slow. I've not been sleeping that well lately and so I've just been exhausted all day for the last few days. I need to get hold of my doctor and find out what is going on with my sleep apnea stuff. I think that's how it's spelled. I haven't been diagnosed yet, but Husband says he's certain I have it.

I already had one device, but something was wrong or concerning about numbers they got so they are supposed to be sending me a second thing for me to wear for a few days, but I've not heard anything for a while about it. That will have to be on my to-do list for tomorrow. There is another doctors appointment that I need to set up for myself as well.

I am making quite good progress on the books I am reading and Lady (our puppy) is doing really well with her training. We haven't had any accidents in the house since the first day! She's such a smart puppy. Well that's all for today.

Remember: Someone is jealous of something you have or can do.

-Ayvid

Today's Stats:
Weight: 252.2 (9/1)
Waist: 44.5" (8/18)
Step Streak: 0 days (Longest: 14)
Soda Streak: 0 days (Longest: 7)

Some Changes

So I haven't been posting lately because I've not been feeling the greatest. I'm starting to feel better now though. There have been some changes here at the Reader house. We got ourselves a dog!! She's so cute! We adopted her on the 30th of August. She's a little Chihuahua/Terrier mix. She is still adjusting to things around here, but is getting better already.

I also lost weight this week! I'm down to 252.2! That puts me down 18 pounds! I am feeling better too. It's been really hard staying away from sweets, but I'm doing my best and still losing weight so that's great! I think having the dog is going to help since I will be out walking her a lot.

Well that's all for now!

Remember: What makes you special makes you strong.

-Ayvid

Today's Stats:
Weight: 252.2 (9/1)
Waist: 44.5" (8/18)
Step Streak: 12 days (Longest: 14)
Soda Streak: 0 days (Longest: 7)

Little Gain, but No Setback

That's right. I gained a pound back. It's OK though. I can pick up and carry on from there. It's only a little gain so I'm not counting it as a setback. This just shows that I need to up things a little to keep losing. Tomorrow I am going to reevaluate my step goal and probably up it. I did lose 2" on my waist which was awesome!!

My belly is finally blocked by the view of my chest which is also awesome. I am generally feeling better although today my energy is sapped. I think I might need to do a quick workout in the morning tomorrow and rest for most of the day. Well I gotta head off. Just too exhausted to type too much.

Remember: You are worthy of love.

-Ayvid

Today's Stats:
Weight: 259.4 (8/18)
Waist: 44.5" (8/18)
Step Streak: 6 days (Longest: 14)
Soda Streak: 0 days (Longest: 7)

Nervous about Tomorrow

So I'm nervous about tomorrow since I weigh in. I'm going to do it for sure. I want to check what progress I've made in that area. I have noticed a difference in my stomach though. My chest finally blocks my stomach from view! I was pretty excited when I realized this. It prompted me to try on some shirts that I hadn't been quite comfortable in and realized I went down from a XXXL to a XXL. Not a big jump but still a good one!

My next goal is to be able to fit into size 22 pants. I have some from before that are pretty cute that I'm excited to be able to wear. I did have a soda today since I needed the caffeine badly and hadn't had one in a bit. It was the last caffeinated one we had. Even though today was a rest day I did get my steps. I did quite a bit more reading too which is always nice.

Well that's all for today. Remember: You don't need a crown to be a princess.

-Ayvid

Today's Stats:
Weight: 258.0 (8/18)
Waist: 46.5" (8/18)
Step Streak: 4 days (Longest: 14)
Soda Streak: 0 days (Longest: 7)

Gardening in the Sun

Today was pretty sunny so this morning for my workout I went out to my garden and pulled weeds for 20 minutes. It maybe wasn't the hardest workout, but it was still a good one and got some much needed weeding done. Other than that it was a pretty normal day. When I went to water the lawn we found out that the sprinkler is broken which sucks.

It means one of our neighbors broke it while detaching it despite the fact we have it worked out to where they aren't supposed to do anything with it. I understand that it's an accident, but that was an expensive sprinkler and was only a few months old. At least the hose is still good. We will just have to replace the sprinkler.

I got my steps in. Tomorrow is a rest day which will be nice. I am hoping I am over this cold soon so that I can start going back over to my sister's place and workout with her and my mom. Well that's all for tonight.

-Ayvid

Today's Stats:
Weight: 258.0 (8/18)
Waist: 46.5" (8/18)
Step Streak: 3 days (Longest: 14)
Soda Streak: 4 days (Longest: 7)

Lots of Rain and Reading

So today rained a lot in Northern Utah. It's still raining as I write this. It's nice because we need it badly. I just hope it's helping the firefighters and not creating more issues. I worked out this morning to a pretty good Youtube workout. I am up to 20 minute workouts. I had to go a little slower though because of this cold. It's settling into my chest. I hope I'm over it soon, but I think the smoke and stuff in the air lately has helped to keep it in my system.

I started reading In Defense of the Princess by Jerramy Fine. I've only read the first chapter so far, but it's super interesting. I've also started reading The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald too. I'm not enjoying it as much as In Defense of the Princess though. Other than a lot of reading and rain there hasn't been much else going on here.

I did get my steps today even though I didn't go on a walk today because of the rain. With a small snack I'll make my calorie range today too. I am going to look up how to do a sugar scrub for my face to see if that helps with some dry skin issues I'm having. I will update you all when I do it.

Well that's all for tonight. Remember: what you hate about yourself someone out there loves about you.

-Ayvid

Today's Stats:
Weight: 258.0 (8/18)
Waist: 46.5" (8/18)
Step Streak: 2 days (Longest: 14)
Soda Streak: 3 days (Longest: 7)